Monday, August 24, 2015

Wednesday, August 12, 2015

RDT (Random Diabetes Thought)

I guess it's "whatever Wednesday". Oh boy.

I woke up this morning in a panicked sweat, around 2:30 am I was low and stumbled to the frig to swig some orange juice. After climbing back in bed, I saw my number turn the corner in the upward direction and decided it was ok to go back to sleep. Half an hour later I woke up in a complete panic, I had just dreamed about the most amazingly delicious Wendy's hamburger (I don't even really like Wendy's, or hamburgers) and freaked out because I "forgot to bolus for it". It literally took me a good 5 minutes after waking up to realize that I indeed had not sleep-drove to Wendy's, nor did I sleep-eat a juicy hamburger, nor-mostly did I miss a quite hefty carb count and bolus.

It was a Diabetic nightmare. Any one else have those or am I just absolutely off my rocker??!?!

Thursday, July 30, 2015

At the Top of the Mountain

I really like math and graphs and curves, a lot. I do.

And I've been thinking about my Diabetes control, a lot. [forever and always]

So, I decided there are two schools of thought on the issue: (1) maintain extremely tight control and (2) maintain "manageable" control. For the visual learners, it would look a little something like this:



In option 1, the blood sugars are maintained as close to "normal" as possible, likely decreasing complications from the disease. However, this tight control comes at a cost: your sanity. That ball is balancing ever so cautiously on the precipice of a giant mountain with steep sides. One wrong move, one carb counted incorrectly, one 5 minute exercise extension sends the ball over the edge with extreme effort required to bring it back to center (and probably feeling pretty crappy during that process).

Option 2, on the other hand, does not dance so "close to the edge" (pun intended). The slope is more gradual, and small mistakes are easier to recover from. No, control isn't the "tightest" (a different threshold for every Diabetic), but the pro to this management style is breathing room. There is built in breathing room for life's little curve balls and less stress associated with hitting the tight target thresholds.

So, which is better? Ugh....good question. For me, when life can handle it I am for option 1, but sometimes I need to relax a bit and settle into option 2. Choosing which to focus on - health or life - is the ultimate balancing act, and often changes on a daily (sometimes hourly) basis.

Of course, deep down we know that one affects the other - tight control can make life better with potentially less complications, and enjoying life can reduce stress hormones and help the diabetes animal behave.

Monday, July 20, 2015

Midnight Snackin'

Working the night shift is weird for many reasons, one being food!

And Type 1 Diabetes!

And food!

It's strange to shift one's sleep schedule AND one's eating schedule. And it has definitely been a game of guess and check (as in, guess what to eat, check blood sugar, lol). The first night I really don't feel very hungry. Sure I bring along a little snack, but it may or may not be consumed depending on how I'm feeling. The second night I eat my snack to wake up in the middle of my shift; at least my taste buds are awake, maybe they can fly the space station? By the third night, I'm pretty dang hungry around 4am. Lately I've been splitting a Luna Bar in half and noshing on the two halves around 4am and 6am (28 grams of carbs at once spikes the blood sugar a little too much, so splitting it up works perfectly), then I use some delicious red grapes to "fill in the gaps" when I just need a little crunch of something sweet. This is all fine and good during my shift, but what about afterwards?

Well, I usually have something around 20 grams of "slow" carbs when I get home (lately it's been a whole wheat English muffin), then hit the hay for my rest period. The first couple days I wake up around lunch time with some hunger pangs, but by the third day I'm sleeping like a baby through lunch.

I wake up around 4pm and have a small snack to hold me over for dinner (usually around 7pm), then get my snacks together and ready for the next night of shift work.

I would love to say Diabetes plays along with all these schedule shifts, but the truth is, it's a bit of a bear. Often I go low during the day when I'm sleeping, because my body is used to eating during the daytime, so I have to set temporary basal rates to account for missed meals. Then at night it is very dependent on the meal we have for dinner, how much we exercise and my stress level. I test a lot and watch Dexcom almost as much as the space station telemetry!

The truth is, I'm still figuring out the best ways to schedule shift, and each time I have to do it things turn out differently. I guess that's how Diabetes, and life in general, are.

Sunday, July 19, 2015

Sunday Funday

Ok, so the hours aren't great (11pm - 8am). 
And I have to don an eye mask just to sleep. [And Chris has to be extra quiet during the day].
And I watch lots of data, and plan a.lot.
And sometimes I start to see hidden messages and notes in the telemetry squiggles. 

But just when I start to feel real tired there comes an amazing sunrise; actually 5 sunrises and sunsets in just 9 hours. 



The beautiful local sunrise is just an added bonus!


#missioncontrol
#spacestationpilot
#dreamjob

Thursday, July 2, 2015

Wiener Dog, on the Blog

When my great grandma Rose died several years ago her stuff was split up for anyone who wanted something. I ended up with a simple set of daily sayings, sometimes prayers, sometimes phrases or quotes. They are printed on small pieces of paper and held together with two metal rings. The little sayings live in my kitchen drawer so I can reference them each morning with breakfast. Here is what the rolodex told me the other day:

"Don't pray for rain if you are going to complain about the mud."

I needed that little nudge so hard that day, and most days I can use the sayings it spews. 

The little things in life. 


Like trying to take a nap on the couch with a wiener dog hogging the space ;-)

Little things are sooooooo good. 

Monday, June 29, 2015

iPhone photos - an update!

I'll freely admit I enjoy routines. 
But lately our lives have not been especially "routine". 

You may have heard about Tropical Storm Bill? 
Everyone in Houston freaked out, the grocery stores ran out of food and water, NASA allowed us "liberal leave" to avoid driving in bad conditions...and then we got about 4 inches of rain. Don't get me wrong, I love working from home on stormy days 
(I still looooove rain, must be that desert blood in me). 

Our backyard view of TS Bill. 
The impending tropical storm delayed our visitors by one day. Chris's dad and his girlfriend drove from Alabama to hang out with us over Father's Day weekend. It was nice to just hangout, relax, and catch up. On Father's Day the boys wanted to go go-karting, so we went to two different tracks (one indoor and one outdoor). I raced with them on the outdoor track, but I didn't feel up for the "pro-race" at the indoor track. 


I'm trying to get the motivation to clean house and do laundry post-guests...but ugh...sometimes I would rather lounge on the couch and watch Netflix ;-)